Waltz Of my life

2010-03-17T07:55:00.002+08:00

Its been a tiring week.... and well assignments and stuff just seem unending.. How i wish i could just stop the time and do the things i love... Namely completing FF13 and getting all my gundams done :)

2010-01-28T19:47:00.002+08:00

A new year and the first post of the year.....

Man this blog is so dean, i hope to revive it now with this new skin. Anyway, i am hooked on to Gundam senki on PS3 and is grinding more cash now hahaha.

2009-11-12T20:11:00.003+08:00

Even after a sem of mental preparations... This still feels uber crazy....
So i would propose to any dictionary to add this as the new definition of dead:

dead

[ded] Show IPA adjective, -er, -est, noun, adverb

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–adjective

1.	no longer living; deprived of life: dead people; dead flowers; dead animals.

2.	brain-dead.

3.	not endowed with life; inanimate: dead stones.

4.	resembling death; deathlike: a dead sleep; a dead faint.

5.	bereft of sensation; numb: He was half dead with fright. My leg feels dead.

6.	lacking sensitivity of feeling; insensitive: dead to the needs of others.

7.	incapable of being emotionally moved; unresponsive: dead to the nuances of the music.

8.	(of an emotion) no longer felt; ended; extinguished: a dead passion; dead affections.

9.	no longer current or prevalent, as in effect, significance, or practice; obsolete: a dead law; a dead controversy.

10.	no longer functioning, operating, or productive: a dead motor; a dead battery.

11.	not moving or circulating; stagnant; stale: dead water; dead air.

12.	utterly tired; exhausted: They felt dead from the six-hour trip.

13.	(of a language) no longer in use as a sole means of oral communication among a people: Latin is a dead language.

14.	without vitality, spirit, enthusiasm, or the like: a dead party.

15.	lacking the customary activity; dull; inactive: a dead business day.

16.	complete; absolute: dead silence; The plan was a dead loss.

17.	sudden or abrupt, as the complete stoppage of an action: The bus came to a dead stop.

18.	put out; extinguished: a dead cigarette.

19.	without resilience or bounce: a dead tennis ball.

20.	infertile; barren: dead land.

21.	exact; precise: the dead center of a circle.

22.	accurate; sure; unerring: a dead shot.

23.	direct; straight: a dead line.

24.	tasteless or flat, as a beverage: a dead soft drink.

25.	flat rather than glossy, bright, or brilliant: The house was painted dead white.

26.	without resonance; anechoic: dead sound; a dead wall surface of a recording studio.

27.	not fruitful; unproductive: dead capital.

28.	Law. deprived of civil rights so that one is in the state of civil death, esp. deprived of the rights of property.

29.	Sports. out of play: a dead ball.

30.	(of a golf ball) lying so close to the hole as to make holing on the next stroke a virtual certainty.

31.	(of type or copy) having been used or rejected.

32.

Electricity.

a.	free from any electric connection to a source of potential difference and from electric charge.

b.	not having a potential different from that of the earth.

33.

Metallurgy. (of steel)

a.	fully killed.

b.	unresponsive to heat treatment.

34.	(of the mouth of a horse) no longer sensitive to the pressure of a bit.

35.	noting any rope in a tackle that does not pass over a pulley or is not rove through a block.

–noun

36.	the period of greatest darkness, coldness, etc.: the dead of night; the dead of winter.

37.	the dead, dead persons collectively: Prayers were recited for the dead.

–adverb

38.	absolutely; completely: dead right; dead tired.

39.	with sudden and total stoppage of motion, action, or the like: He stopped dead.

40.	directly; exactly; straight: The island lay dead ahead.

—Idioms

41.	dead in the water, completely inactive or inoperable; no longer in action or under consideration: Our plans to expand the business have been dead in the water for the past two months.

42.	dead to rights, in the very act of committing a crime, offense, or mistake; red-handed.

*** New****
Have two exams on the same day at the same time. Hahahahaha

Man i sure need to mug like crazy already.......

2009-10-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

1 CA down, 3 more coming up.... and 1 more lab test on the way next week too.....

The only thing that is giving me a breath of relief are my night runs, clocking up to 10 km now... Well i am hoping to up it up to 15 by next month, till then i need to get my body used to the long distance running and the lack of glucose and water.

Fri MA2213
Sat CS1102C
Wed LSM1102
Thur CS1102C Lab test...

I really should be catching up on my sleep or mugging rather then this. Well this is to show that my blog is not dead hahahah

Yay sat is Fervour Day (:

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-09-20T00:45:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, here are the links to the downloads... I separated them into the different titles so enjoy and share the joy of the dead sea scrolls :)

Christian History Time Line

NT - 50 Proofs of the Bible

OT - 50 Proofs of the Bible

How We Got The Bible

The Dead Sea Scrolls

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-09-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

Mol-gene, mol-gene, why for art thou so hard to understand.

Seriously, it was crazy, i was stunned on the first of 2 qns, with only 30min for the paper, i took like 20 to 25 min for the first and i am not even sure if it is correct or not. Yet, by God's grace and mercy, the time was suddenly extended by 10 mins, and God giving me the confidence to finish the 2nd qns. Praise God, thank God (:

It is not for me, it is all for You
The earth is filled with Your glory

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-08-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

Dying!!!! I need the motivation to read the two horrendous research paper.....

2009-08-24T09:05:00.002+08:00

Why do i still feel so tired physically, emotionally and spiritually?? Is it because i have been overworking myself? Running 7+km to macritchie yesterday morning and a 4.8 xcountry route with Yos and then about a 3km cool down walk around the coast area.

Emotionally, last night was really bad, thinking about stuff i dont want to think about.... Stuff that just force their way into my head.. I really just want to find someone i can cry out to, but no one can replace You or you. When the call becomes so painful, God only You can be the source of my strength.. Nobody but you.

2009-08-14T18:41:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAAaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh stilllll sick and man school is getting hard to understand.... Sian... So tired and desires to sleep during lectures are very high... God please help me ):

2009-08-07T08:47:00.001+08:00

I feel like crap... temp is going up and down non stop... just when i feel like it is getting better, it gets worst T_T

2009-08-02T12:21:00.003+08:00

When reality and dream mingle, how do we tell what is real?

The pain this stomach flu is giving me is getting worst every min. Sleepless night, stomach cramps, aching body, headache, sore throat and the list just goes on and on.

I am hungry but i dont even have any mood to eat, should i eat or not... Even walking now is quite a chore for me. When will this torture end... I am crying out to You, i need You more then ever.

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

Training for my 42km is really getting harder... I need to push myself above my limits and set higher limits..

But in all, i can only do it with God, He is the source of my strength and my comforter.

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-28T11:42:00.001+08:00

Somehow my left eye is hurting pretty bad... Been like that since i got up. and its tearing every now and then T_T

2009-07-28T08:54:00.000+08:00

A renewed view of the world…

Yet the devil still tried to bring us down. Even when the heart has been renewed, the devil still tried to trap me with thoughts. However, I know that these should be confessed to God and not kept inside, only then will satan lose his power. It is when we keep it all inside and to ourselves that sin gets its power.

I don’t know how I came up with this saying -> “What is kept in the darkness, cannot remain in the light, but what is brought to the light, will be purified by God.” How I feel it is really true. I believe it is words from God (:

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

Let this be my secret place:

Let this words be from God to encourage others who reads this (:

Going through this week, i was really down emotionally and spiritually; losing appetite eating only like one meal on mon and some red bean ice. After having lunch with Adrian on tues, while at church, i felt God telling me so clearly to fast.... And not just a normal fast, but a complete fast lasting all the way till today. Even the time was so clear, 6.00pm. I tried to be smart and asked God if i could drink liquid food like milk and milo, however to my surprise, He said that i am ONLY able to drink plain water. Here is a breakdown of what i went thru the past few days:

Tues:
Had lunch only, went with kenneth for dinner. Still bearable.

Wed:
Met wilson for tea and chat, it was a great time talking about stuff lol.. Had a little urge to have his dumpling noodles he had for lunch and the waffles he ate for dinner. Overall, i was still hanging on.

Thurs:
Went down to church to help kenneth with moving chairs, we both waited for wei jian. Then kenneth suggested a place i dreaded, Sakuraya Fish Mart. They both ordered salmon belly, tako and mackerel, its like tempting me with a new game of the year game, unbearable. To further the insult to injury, they ordered a grilled saba, at the point i almost broke. Physically, mentally and emotionally, they all scream to eat, yet i know, it is giving into the flesh. Somehow, i found strength to overcome it, not by my own power, but by His.

Fri:
This was the worst day, till this point i was already having problems sleeping, diarrhea and feeling faint. Was suppose to go help my cca group, however, i had the calling to go home. I then spent the whole day sleeping, fighing dreams of me eating, hunger pangs, physical and mental distress. Yet i still believed that if God is with me, who can be against me. Even when the temptations of food could not make me sway, that idiot, satan still tried make me take shortcuts, like drinking milk to ease the pains and all that. It did influence my thoughts for a moment, questioning God if it is ok, yet, i remember God saying ONLY plain water. So as painful as it is already, i cast that though aside, know for sure it is not from God.

By now, i've learned that God does not want anything fancy, beautiful or great. He can create the world, why would He need it? I believe that what He was is a heart that is obedient to Him. Obedience in good times and in hurt, you cannot imagine the amount of hurt i've endured physically, emotionally and mentally. I believe His heart would even hurt more than what i felt.

On this day, i was really on the verge of breakdown, every part of me just screamed for food. Yet in obedience, i just spent the whole day huddled under my blanket shivering and figthing. In this hard and trying time, i remembered Jesus fasting in the wilderness, for 40 days and nights, 10 times of what i experienced. Can you imagine? In just 3 days, i am already in an emotional mess, struggling just to pull thru the end of the day, Jesus did exponentially more then what i felt. I do say up to this point, every moment feels way worst then i felt in NS, i rather do a 24 km march than this. I spent the entire day drifting between sleep and my physical struggles.

Sat:
Finally, the last day, it was unbearable, with everyone talking about food and all that. And for once in my time in Fervour, i was wearing a sweater because i felt cold.. And i also felt really faint.

This is to God, my close friend, Fervour, YI and any Christians reading this.
In closing, i would say, run this race, thinking not of our needs but to follow God in un-parallel OBEDIENCE.

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-24T16:17:00.002+08:00

I know now, that at times God's calling may not be some that feels good or even pleasant. Yet it is our, my choice to follow His voice to obey.

Being called by God to fast from tuesday to saturady evening, not a meal or partial, but a complete fast, only being able to drink water. FYI, the last meal i had was with adrian during lunch on tues. So now as the goals nears, so does temptations, desires, and thoughts to disobey. Thoughts starts flooding in my head saying i should drink milk, milo or other liquid food, yet i heard so clearly that God wants me to just go on water. This 4 days are really a battle of physical, emotional and mental conflicts. However, amidst the pain, running thoughts, desires and physical torment, i still choose to say, God i will follow Your will.

I believe that God put us in situations to test and mould us, to see if we are strong enough. Sometimes strength does not come from acceptance but to reject and to stand up to it. Look at it from this point of view, Jesus endured 30 days of fast, i believe He does not even have water, and when He was tempted. He could give in and accept satan's temptations, yet He rejected them and experienced a flood from His ministry. I've come to see that when we have God's calling, the devil tends to do much much more to bring us down, to stop us from reaching that potential that God had set for us. Even if he cant do that, he will do everything in his power to shortchange us from doing what God wants. For example, God told me to only drink water, and thoughts says to drink milk or milo to curb my hunger... The will to say no is hard, yet i believe that is what God wants. It is my worship to Him.

What is true worship? I believe it is just one word - Obediance. An unparallel obedience to the one who loved us so much. That is my defination of true worship. When everything comes to an end, take away the songs, lights and so on, the only thing we can do is to be obedient to God.

I will press on, even if my body feels like breaking down. I can tell you all this, i dont trust myself, yet the only person i trust now is someone who cannot be seen, i trust my God. What is impossible with me (this calling) is only possible thru the strength of God, my Lord.

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-23T19:07:00.001+08:00

09 - Hillsongs Australia - The power of Your love.mp3 -

A song that resonates within my very soul.....

An old song but very meaningful.

Power of Your Love

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
In the power of Your love

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-21T22:58:00.003+08:00

Some food for thoughts about relationship qns posted to me by some drain (:

The REAL Man!!!

The image of a real man is confused in our society. There are a lot of mixed messages in the world. Men themselves often don't have a clear idea of who they are and who they should be. TV comedies often show men or husbands as bumbling fools. The opposite image is the tough, independent man rebelling at authority and destroying all his enemies in an orgy of blood. A look around at society shows men who dress like women, like long female-style hair, wear female jewelry, and in general have no idea that men and women are different other than in their sexual organs. Of course, much "romance" writing and pornographic material reduce man to a single-minded sex crazy maniac.

So what is a real man? Will the real man please stand up. In order to learn what a real man should be like we will have to look at the purpose for which he was created and at the examples provided in Scripture. There have only been two perfect men in the history of the world: Adam and Jesus Christ. Of course, Adam did not last long - probably about 24 hours.

We need to know a couple of things about mankind in general [male and female] before we look specifically at the role of a man. Genesis 1:27-31 deals with the creation of Adam and Eve as a unit. Genesis 2 gives the details about how Adam and Eve were specifically created.

What we need to note in Genesis 1 is that both Adam and Eve are stated to be created in the image of God [vs. 27]. Individually and as a unit they were created to reflect the image of God. Both of them were blessed and BOTH of them were given dominion over the earth. Dominion is the right to rule [under God], to manage, to develop, to harness. The earth with all its creatures were given to them to manage and develop to its full potential under the direction of God.

The command to have dominion has been perverted by sin into the lust to dominate. Godly dominion is developing and managing things to their greatest potential for the benefit of all. Domination is the wanton destruction and brutal control over all things for personal benefit. It is important to note that neither Adam nor Eve was given dominion over each other or over the future human race. They were to work as partners to fulfill God's command. Although some responsibility-avoiding Christians disagree, this command to have dominion over the earth has never been withdrawn. It has been greatly complicated by sin, but it is still the original purpose and drive for mankind.

After the summary of the creation of mankind in Genesis 1, we are given the details in Genesis 2 and begin to see the different purposes in male and female. Here is where we will start to see the purpose of a man and who he is.

With all the rest of creation, God spoke and it was so. It was different with man. God took special care to form man from the dust of the earth. This creating of the crowning achievement of creation took time. Not that God could not have done it in a split second, but the investing of time showed value. Man was more valuable than the rest of creation. He was made of the dust so that he would be humble and could identify with that with which he was to rule over. On the other hand, he had the breath of God in him. His soul reached to heaven. He was of the earth, but made for the heavens. Unlike the rest of creation, he has not limited to the physical realm. His soul and spirit could commune with God in the spiritual realm.

Next we see that man's God-given purpose is to work. It was stated even before man was created [vs. 5] that work was his purpose. Work is not part of the curse. Hard, difficult, frustrating work is a result of the curse, but work itself is a blessing. One of the primarily focuses in a man's life is his work. He wants to feel happy and fulfilled in his job. A job is much more than a paycheck. A man needs to feel that he is accomplishing something worthwhile. A meaningless or constantly frustrating job breaks his spirit. A man in such a job [if he cannot find another one] should look for hobbies or volunteer work that can give him a sense of accomplishment and purpose. Work is one of the driving forces in a man. This is one reason why men, when they retire, if they do not have something productive to do or goals to accomplish often give up on life.

Adam received God's commands and was responsible to carry them out. A man is to study the Word of God to know what God says and how to correctly apply it in his life and in the world around him. A man is to be a spiritual leader in very practical ways. Adam had to obey. He was not independent. He needed to depend on God, learn from Him, and obey Him. Knowledge was not to be only theory, it has practical - life and death - implications. The Word of God brings life, knowing and correctly applying it are life and death activities.

Man was created first. He had the responsibility of passing on the knowledge given to him by God. He was to teach Eve and later his children. True, everyone [male and female] is responsible for knowing God and studying the Word of God for themselves, but man also has the additional responsibility of training and teaching in which his wife is to be a helper.

Adam had to work before he was given a wife. He had to prove that he was a responsible man, able and willing to obey God as well as provide for his wife. A real man never considers marriage until he is able to provide spiritual leadership for his wife, provide for her physical necessities, and provide for her emotional needs.

Adam recognized Eve as a part of himself to be treasured. She, too, was a special creation of God equal in value to himself. Adam recognized that he was no longer a single individual but had been united to his wife as a single unit.

What have we learned about who man is and what his purpose is?

1. Man is a special, valuable creation. As such he is not to be down-graded, insulted, or laughed at. He is in the image of God, to insult or misrepresent him is to hurl a insult at God. The image of God is, of course, greatly marred by sin but the redeemed man can hold his head high as he is in the process of being restored to true manhood.

2. Man is created to have fellowship with God. He will never discover who he is, define his purpose, or reach his destiny outside of God. The unredeemed man can never be a real man in the fullest sense of the word. However, this does not mean he is to be treated with disrespect because he is still created in the image of God.

3. Man is made to work. No matter what kind of job it is, he needs to feel that he is accomplishing something worthwhile. A job that one man may feel bored with may thrill another man. We are all different, but we all need to work. Constant welfare is one of the most effective ways to destroy a man.

4. Man is made to know God, His Word, and correctly apply it in the world around Him.

5. A man has the responsibility to teach, train, and guide those under his authority into the ways of God.

6. A man works to prove he can provide the basic leadership, physical, and emotional needs of his wife. He never expects or accepts - even if offered - any sexual activity until he has proved himself and entered into a marriage covenant. He wants to lay a solid foundation for their future life although it may mean many sacrifices in the present.

Let's look at the example of Jesus Who was a Perfect Man. Jesus lived as a Real Man for 33 1/2 years. What was He like, what did He do? Of course, studying Jesus is a lifetime project, but I want to draw a few quick facts to your attention.

1. Jesus was under authority. He was always submitted to His Father's authority and to the human representatives of that authority whether it was His parents or other Godly authority. A real man is not independent. He relies on God for His strength and is submissive and respectful to God's earthly authorities. His desire is to do only what pleases the Father.

2. Sometime during the teenage or young adult years of Jesus, His earthly father died. As the eldest Son Jesus assumed responsibility for looking after His mother, brothers, and sisters. He worked hard as a manual labourer until the time He entered full-time ministry. Even then He met His mother's needs right up to the cross. A real man does not avoid his responsibilities no matter how difficult or unpleasant they may be. He does not place his "ministry" over his family responsibilities.

3. Jesus was a Man Who spent time to know God and to know the Father's will. He spent time in studying the Scripture and prayer. To follow God's will, real men spend time to learn it.

4. Jesus was a Man of integrity. He never cheated, never lied to get Himself out of trouble, and He operated in total honesty. People could trust Him. Women and children could feel safe around Him. Real men are men of integrity. A real man keeps his word regardless of the cost. A real man pays his debts. A real man is safe. He does does not give in to lustful eyes or dishonest words.

5. Jesus was a Man of courage. He stood up to the most powerful men of Israel and exposed them. His life was often in danger but He did not back down. And, of course, in the end He voluntarily laid down His life to save others. Real men stand for what is right no matter what the cost. Sometimes it has cost them their jobs, their families, and even their lives. They will not compromise what is right before God.

6. Contrary to the popular drawings of Jesus, He was did not look like a woman and there was no halo around His head. It is highly unlikely He had long hair. He worked hard and had the muscles of a working man. He was a Man and He looked like it. Real men don't try to look like women.

7. Jesus was kind, thoughtful, and loving. He was understanding. He never compromised His beliefs or convictions but He accepted people as they were. The average person liked Jesus. Even sinners wanted to be around Him. A real man accepts and loves people without condemning them or compromising his own values.

8. Jesus went through many hardships and tough times but there was no complaining, whining, self-pity, or blaming others. He knew whatever happened was allowed by God for His benefit. Because He had total trust in God, He could be thankful in every situations. Real men are not whiners or given to self-pity.

There are many more qualities of a real man that we can see in Jesus, but these should provide food for thought. Think about and study the life of Jesus. Being a man is not an easy job. God didn't design it to be easy. A real man grows through the challenges of becoming a real man. It is a lifetime project.

Although it is easier said then done, it is only by the strength of God that it is possible. Jesus was no more "man" then any guys today, yet why is He able to be The Man? Only with God, it is possible.... The qns adrian asked me kinda sparked some questions if ages matters in desires on r/s. And if they do how do we avoid them in order to not hurt both parties?

This brings me to a quote from a very old game:
"The closer you get to the light, the greater your shadow becomes.
But don’t be afraid. And don’t forget you hold the mightiest weapon of all. Your Heart."

Some questions are just not meant to be answered, not because there is not answers, but it is that we have to find the answers ourselves. Everything in this world is separated by just a thin line, it is as if all things are like the two sides of a coin.

Well on a side note, i believe that i found a great place to spend my time in the presence of God in church... Nothing too fancy just a chair and a view... Well that means i'll be bugging kenneth yeo more often already (:

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

A day with a very bad start and ok ending.....

Woke up with an intense itch on my neck.... which resulted in an extreamly big lump on my neck... casting it aside as nothing i went down to church... While washing my hands after lunch, i realized that my entire neck to collar bone are being completely red... And with an unbearable itch...

Searching the cafe first aid box, resulted in nothing much... Then rosaline told me to get anti inflammatory cream... Which did the job..

Now the itch is still there.................................... Sian

I kinda wish i could bite off my neck now -_-

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-18T01:23:00.002+08:00

Harry Potter was a great show.... Hahahaah Well apart from some curious (for a lack of better words) facts to name a few, like someone falling off a castle without any splat, blood or smashed up body for example hahah...

Ok i got bang the bullet and its like almost 200 cards total la.... maybe more cause i took out some cards (instruction cards) The 200 card protectors desmond got me was just enough la....

Ok off to bed le bye bye

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-07-13T02:41:00.001+08:00

Here again i am, unable to sleep... Maybe cos my module registration is coming up.... been having these cases after i checked them yesterday......

I still dont know what the causes are T_T

2009-07-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Keith Koh

(Please print these pages for a permanent record of your analysis.)
Spiritual Gifts
Strength
Evangelism 4
Prophecy 12
Teaching 11
Exhortation 16
Pastor/Shepherd 15
Showing Mercy 18
Serving 22
Giving 15
Administration 20

About Your Spiritual Gifts

Spiritual gifts are tools God gives Christians to do the work of the ministry -- to fulfill the Great Commission to reach, baptize, and teach and to minister to one another. Every Christian receives at least one gift at the moment of salvation. Spiritual gifts are not rewards, are not natural talents, are not a place of service, are not an age-group ministry, and are not a specialty ministry. They express themselves through various ministries which, in turn, accomplish a variety of results. A spiritual gift is the primary channel by which the Holy Spirit ministers through the believer. It is a supernatural capacity for service to God -- and He gives you a supernatural desire to perform the duties of that gift. Spiritual gifts are tools for building the church. They are a source of joy in your Christian life and influence your motives. A spiritual gift is a divine calling with a divine responsibility, because what God has gifted you to do, He has called you to do, and what He has called you to do, He has gifted you to do.

There are three categories of gifts: The Miraculous Gifts, generally known today as Charismatic Gifts; the Enabling Gifts which all Christians have the ability to develop (faith, discernment, wisdom, and knowledge -- qualities possessed rather than activities performed); and Team Gifts which are activity, service, or task-oriented. The Team Gifts are functional and involve speaking or ministering. Chances are, you have several of these gifts that vary in different degrees and intensity. In many cases, spiritual gifts even complement your secular employment. The Spiritual Gifts Analysis you took identified your dominant TEAM GIFTS which will help you find your place on the team in your church. Prayer and serving God will also help you see where God wants you. This profile gives you a simple bar graph showing how all the gifts relate to you and to each other, but analyzes indepth only your dominant and secondary gifts which are the ones that will have greater influence in your life.

Your dominant gifts are Serving, Administration

The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your number one dominant gift is SERVING! The Greek word "Diakonia" means to do service. In Acts 6:1 the word is interpreted "ministration." Our word deacon comes from the same Greek word. Actually the gift of serving combines helps and ministering. The word "helps" is used in 1 Corinthians 12:28 and "ministering" in Romans 12:7. As a server you have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by rendering practical help in both physical and spiritual matters. You enjoy meeting the practical needs of your fellow Christians and the church.

The gift of serving is not the gift God gives you when you cannot do anything else. It is spiritual in nature and as important as any gift in the church. Never think it is anything less; it only becomes less if you do not use it as God intended.

As a server you are the person who is willing to do a million and one necessary tasks in the church. You probably do not realize that your love for the Lord is showing every time the doors of the church are open, especially if you oiled the hinges last week so they don't squeak any more. You are happy working behind the scenes. You are ambitious, often involved in a variety of activities, and enjoy manual projects. You are loyal, sincere, tolerant, faithful, and devoted. Most people find you easy going, likable, congenial, and inoffensive. You can listen to others without being critical. You do not like to be in the spotlight and prefer not to express yourself publicly.

You are quick to respond to needs and impressed with the need to respond when exhorted to serve. Because of this, you find it difficult to say no. You like to support a good leader. Some consider you a workaholic. You tend to emphasize practical needs over spiritual needs.

Be careful that you complete what you start and do not neglect the needs of your own family by trying to meet so many needs in the church or in others' homes. Be willing to read and follow directions in the beginning--not just when all else fails. Because of your quick response, some people think you jump in too fast. Others think you neglect spiritual needs.

Beware of Satan's attack on your gift. He can cause pride because of the work you do. He may cause you to feel insignificant or cause you to lack concern for people or for spiritual growth. Impatience and lack of knowledge cause poor-quality workmanship.

HOW CAN YOU USE YOUR GIFT? Your gift may put you into action. You may serve as manager of maintenance and grounds. You can do may tasks such as paint the walls, pick up trash, sort hymnals, clean the baptistry, keep the nurseryÐor launder nursery bedding, cook meals, paint signs, drive the bus, help with the choir, run errands, serve as an audio-video worker, help with recordkeeping, be the church librarian, act as a greeter or an usher, serve as a stage hand in drama productions or as a photographer. You may want to help in special ministries such as migrant or community help (with home repairs or meal-on-wheels for the needy and elderly), as a hospitality worker for newcomers, or as an instrumentalist. You may also enjoy beautifying the church ground with flower gardens and landscaping. The list goes on.

The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your second dominant gift is ADMINISTRATION! The Greek word "kubernesis" means one who steers a ship. This expert had the responsibility to bring a ship into the harbor through the rocks and shoals, under all types of pressures. As an administrator you have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by organizing, administering, promoting, and leading the various affairs of the church. The administrator is not a glorified file clerk.

As an administrator you are a take-charge person who jumps in and starts giving orders when no one is in charge. You will put a plan on paper and start delegating responsibility. You may lean toward organizing things, events or programs, OR toward organizing people, emphasizing personal relationships and leadership responsibilities. In the first case, you usually organize details and have people carry them out. In the second case, you tend to organize people and rely on others to take care of the little things.

You don't often admit to mistakes and do not like to take time to explain why you are doing things; you just expect the job to get done. If things in the church, office, club, etc. become fragmented, you can harmonize the whole program if given a chance. You are a person with a dream and are not afraid to attempt the impossible. You are goal-oriented, well-disciplined, and work best under heavy pressure. You are often a good motivator and not a procrastinator. You are serious minded, highly motivated, intense, and have an accurate self-image. You tend to be more interested in the welfare of the group than your own desire. You are probably a perfectionist and want things done your way now.

Although to others you appear to be organized, you usually aren't. Be careful that you do not make decisions just based on logic rather than Scripture. Work on your willingness to admit to making a mistake and on being more sensitive to "little" people. Try to be a little more tolerant of other people's mistakes.

Beware of Satan's attack on your gift. He can cause pride because of your leadership role, selfishness because of success (not sharing glory with those under you), blame-shifting when things go wrong, discouragement and frustration when goals are not met, anger and mistreatment of those who disagree with your plans, lack of concern for people, lack of spiritual growth, and wrong motives.

HOW CAN YOU USE YOUR DOMINANT GIFT? You may work well as the leader of a project, ministry, or program; chairman of a committee or board; a church planner; or chairman of building or fund-raising projects. Other positions where you may serve well include pastor, assistant pastor, business manager, office manager or department head for large staff, Sunday school superintendent, fellowship group or missionary circle leader, library manager, camp director, church moderator, bus ministry director, nursery coordinator or Vacation Bible School director.

2009-06-29T20:22:00.002+08:00

Hello again, its been a long while since I last update…. Here are some things that happened today. I learn how to make green yogurt tea from green milk tea, heck it even smells like yogurt. Anyone care to be my guinea pig… I mean taster. Ah yes taster. Hahaha.

On a side note, please don’t ask me watch transformers anymore, cos I’ve watched it twice already and am now waiting for the DVD to come out hahaha. Great show!!!

Another thing is that I am currently hooked on to this game…. CROSS EDGE, A big compilation of five game companies that have come together to create one single game? Madness I tell you!!

This soundtrack is going into my ipod ASAIDLI (As soon as I DL it) hahahahah… great sound too

Some of the characters in the game

Disgaea (part of the Underworld)

Etna

Prinny

Darkstalkers (part of the Underworld)

Morrigan

Felicia

Demitri

Ar Tonelico (part of the Dreamworld)

Aurica

Misha

Shurelia

Mana Khemia 2

Roze

Lillane

Atelier series (part of the Dreamworld)

Marie

Spectral Souls

Mue

Will be going down to church tmr to help Kenneth Yeo with stuff hahaha and I will be getting Bang! The Bullet in about 2 weeks time too hahaha.

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-06-17T01:20:00.001+08:00

When hurts leads to crushed spirit, how do we revive and recover?
When flesh collides with rocks, what will the outcome be?

Tell me please!!??

2009-06-16T22:15:00.002+08:00

Living in a world of hurt... Where is my haven?

Traveling without my ipod made me think more than usual.... Making me remember the song Pain from xenosaga:

First we touch, and we hurt each other
Then we tear our hearts apart
We are too close and I can feel the pain
Fill my empty heart

Is this pain too much for me
Can I stay the same
When this pain consumes my heart
Will I be able to hold on to my soul

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into light
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away

Even when we behold each other
Somehow our eyes do not meet
And when you hold me in your strong embrace
Still I feel no heat

But it gives me such delight
To feel you closer now
I know I am true to myself
Though it cuts deep into my heart somehow

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away

Kindness is something I don't want or need
The sunshine would just dissolve me into night
Give me a pain as pleasing as your sigh
So I can feel you all the day and night
And keep me from fading away

What done is done, damages and hurts scars my heart...

Wait for the end of the world to come or wind up accidentally triggering it ourselves..
Golden Sun :: GBA

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-06-16T09:06:00.000+08:00

When my world is in shades of gray, where can i find my colours??

2009-06-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

Unable to sleep.... Would solitude suit me better??? I dont know, i am leaning towards yes... I just feel that it is tooo much.... Why should i suffer for others....

Chaos in thoughts
Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-06-15T00:41:00.001+08:00

What happens when preconceptions and convenience of the majority drowns out the voices and feelings of the minority?? Is it true that people would go for the things that are convenient for them and ignore the feelings of others?? Is it my curse that I tend to ignore my own feelings so that others would be happy?? If it so what can I do…. Someone tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!

To help the world or to destroy it, what should I choose??

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-06-07T11:47:00.000+08:00

Every good thing must come to an end, well, i do hope my body aches will end too... ah my arms still hurts T_T

2009-06-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finally the end of the conference…. Time to catch up on my long overdue sleep…. So I’ll be KOing till late tmr…. Or should I say today hahaha…. CALL ME AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!! Muwahahahahaha….

Serving in media was really great, although there are times when I am unable to join cell group, but it is still for God. There are some accidents that happened like me breaking the tube when it just dropped, burned my finger adjusting the lights and some others. Lol not to mention the dangerous stuff I did as well :P… Hahaha more to update when I can, lol…

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-05-31T03:49:00.000+08:00

Having a chat with Clarence over a drink on Friday made me think about some stuff… The words he said really made me think – You have changed, you are no longer the happy-go-lucky person I once knew… Even while on the bus to orchard, I kept having the thought of whether I am facing this world with my true self or a mask that has grown to be a part of me… I really don’t know anymore.

Even during service, why do my tears flow out uncontrollably… Even if I have lost my compassion for the world. No longer do I feel any desire for the lost, not even for my dad. Maybe the only person I want to see saved can no longer be saved. So why should I even care about the others.

I just wish I could be set free from this world…

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-05-29T15:32:00.000+08:00

Broken, ripped apart, rend…. What do I do now!!!

Someone please tell me!!!

2009-05-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Fear, anxiety, doubt and sadness; these are the feelings I am experiencing now. With my results coming out tmr at 5 pm it is do or die for me…. God help me that I don’t need to focus on the die part…..

On another note, I’ll be skating with Shawn tmr… Which means that I most likely won’t be attending the media meeting in one piece…

Hold me under Your wings, Never let me go

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-05-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

WHAO!!!! Its beeen more than a month since I last blogged hahaahhaahhaa… So to sum all that happened so far its (I think lynn will kill me for the English and grammer hahahaha):

Keith examed, struggled, died, revived, partied, CHURCHED!!!, Met at Pasir Panjang “MRT”, joined media, served, buffet x2, skated, hamster died, CPRed, BSed, more skating and I rest my case. :P

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

It was really a great day today hahaha. Woke up and started my bible reading (hint: wei kian hahahaha). Then went down to church for BS, was as usual early, so I joined weishun and the rest for a chat and pass James Chia my w900 cos someone passed him a kinda spoilt phone hahahaha (hint to someone lol :p). Stayed there till my boss arrived and I took my place from Ziyi as attendance personnel for BS -_-…..

Ok here is where the fun part started…. After BS, Fervour and some special guest (Davin, Mr & Mrs Kwan) got ready to convoy down to ECP for our cell outing… We got the “advance party” (who actually was late) to go down to Parkway to get the drinks and food. We waited for orange before we all set off for ECP… It was about a 15 min ride down to ECP with Daniel, Fried rice, Orange and me in Boon Ping’s car and Weijian, Lynn, James, Clare, Jack & Adrian on the church van… With Yos, Ken, Winnie, Colin and Davin as the advance party.

When we reached ECP, SWP was there already with bro Nelson, we got off and went to BK for a quick lunch. So I helped boss to rent the bikes while Weijian, Daniel and Boon Ping rented roller blades. Drain and me spent a while teaching the 3 how to skate. Then after, we joined with the advance party and went to search for the bike group…. While skating half way, Boon’s knee gave way and I went off a head to find Colin and the rest… Well I took about 5-10 mins from coasta sands chalet to reach the food centre area where I found Kenni and his group (Him, Wanxin, Xuanwen, Weiwei and Jiehau) and the rest… Told Colin and we went back to Boon and Drain. Some how Kenneth Yeo pop up somewhere in here too ;p.The rest of the day was spent going back to the food centre and towards Carl’s to look for people lol. After everything ended, SWP convoy us to Bedok north for the famous bak cho mee… Well I found out that it was mee in soup… And for people who know me well, they know I hate taking soup stuff unless it is very good… And this BCM was one of the over rated ones :p maybe it is just me la. We had oysters as well before squeezing into the church van towards clementi and church…

So got onto bus reached home bathed and here I am muwahahahaha… Overall it was really a fun day, although I did not, no we all did not get to wash up or bath after all those skating, cycling and stuff. But it was still a day of good fun, and sorry Isaac for not being able to go for the opening for Singapore Arts Festival.

The journey of my life…..

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh

2009-04-13T11:59:00.004+08:00

English test is up in 2 hrs and i cant seem to get a good focus....

Here are some verses hahaha

1 Corinthians 13 (Amplified Bible)

4Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.

5It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].

6It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

7Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

8Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end]. As for prophecy ([d]the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose), it will be fulfilled and pass away; as for tongues, they will be destroyed and cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away [it will lose its value and be superseded by truth].

Proverbs 3:5-6 (Amplified Bible)

5Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.

6In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.

Ephesians 2:13 (Amplified Bible)

13But now in Christ Jesus, you who once were [so] far away, through (by, in) the blood of Christ have been brought near.

2009-04-12T21:01:00.004+08:00

I realized that in this fallen world it is hard to impossible to keep our bodies and thoughts pure. With media using sex to sell their products, everywhere we turn, we can see posters, magazine covers, pictures and even girls dressed sexily.

However through this sermon, I’ve learned that our bodies should be a Holy temple to God. Our price of sin has already been paid by Jesus on the cross. And now, I no longer live but Christ lives in me. So we have to honour God but doing our all to break free from the hold of flesh, addictions and sin.

My body is neutral however it is my natural desires that make me use it in negative ways. Jesus was fully flesh when He was on earth, but He never gave in to His natural desires because He relied on the Holy Spirit. In this fallen world, we must learn to rely on the Holy Spirit instead of relying on the temporary satisfaction of the flesh. As we constantly set ourselves to indulge in the sensual pleasures of the world, causes us to raise that threshold. Causing us to desire more and more worldly pleasure.

It is only the Holy Spirit that can change me and in order to do this, the Holy Spirit have to be giving the control over my body. My body was bought by Jesus' life and as a person redeemed by God, I am under the authority of the King of Kings. I have to learn to live a life that is guided by the Holy Spirit and to rely on Him. It may be hard in this fallen world, however as a person crucified with Christ, I am able to do anything through Him.

I am never letting go of You God, I am holding on to You

Never Letting Go - Audacious

Audacious - Never Letting Go

You came from Heaven’s throne

The Father’s only Son

Faith that made a way to Him

You took the weight of sin

Your death paid for everything

Grace that made a way for me

Pre-chorus

And I will sing, sing to You

Because of Your unending love

I will sing, sing to You

Because You love me

Chorus

Time and again, love never ends

Finding freedom here

Never letting go of You again

My saving grace

Champion of our faith

Finding freedom here

Never letting go of You again

Now Your word’s alive in me

It‘s faith that I believe

Anything is possible

You’re the Saviour of it all

Sent to save a dying world

Hope to be our freedom song

Bridge

No other name like Jesus

No one can stand against us

Jesus You hold the victory

Death and sin defeated

Time and again Jesus You alone are God

Deathscythe :: EternalD :: Keith Koh